A little while longer 

Lying here in the dark with you.  Your breathing is slowing and your body relaxing as you slip into a deep sleep. You screamed all day.  Your sister threw a dozen tantrums. And I spent the day counting down the minutes,  looking for distractions to keep you both preoccupied until bedtime. Your sister recounts all the fun things we did today but I just remember the stress.  The anxiety.  Wishing away the moments. Hoping to make it to the end of the day without losing my temper one more time. “Did I really just flip out over something so small?”  This thought passed through my head numerous times.  Everyone says that I’ll miss these days when you’re grown,  and I believe them.  So I’ll just lie here a little while longer, listening to you breathe.

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